I get it
Posted: January 21, 2022
I get why you don't wanna be here, it can feel crazy trying so hard and not getting anywhere. I get why you want to eat that, why you want to take that, buy that, say that...life, them, that thing can be really overwhelming sometimes or maybe all the time. Staring at a wall, screaming at the top of you lungs, ripping a pillow a part, causing pain to yourself or someone else can seem like you could feel so much better if you did that. I get it. When the going gets tough sometimes the tough is out of toughness. I wish I had the answer, a quote, phrase, verse, something that takes the pain away. I don't, I won't even say that it may get better cause it may not.
I can tell you it is ok to feel what your feeling, if you still decide to stay, which I hope you do; it's ok for you to just be in this place. When we accept where we are cause frankly we're there anyway we have a different opportunity to move. An authentic move....one that's congruent with who you are, not what you're supposed to do. Your healthy will look different from your neighbors as it should. So find what works for you in this place of literally feeling and being alive. You've got this my friend, you've got this! Until next time...